I'm hooked on cable right now! Samurai Jack! The last time I watched it was ages ago! I'm sad to say that Cartoon Network will only be around for awhile. It's only a preview channel. Ha Ha Ha

Jack's always lookin' sad whenever Aku takes away a portal that can bring him back to the past. I was watchin' the episode where he learns to jump and he was about to jump into the portal that Aku was holdin' up.

Mandy said she's goin' out tomorrow. Suddenly don't feel like typin'

I feel like playin' Raw Deal once again but I'm tired of beatin' small kids. I want a real challenge! Any closet Raw Dealers here? Tag my board yeah? I use Lita, Deadman and Brothers of Destruction decks. I also got a lot of good cards up for sale.

That's Pei Ling, from Wushu Warriors! Wow, I know it's blur, but isn't she kinda hot?

I got back from my chalet ohredy. Damn it was good. Very quiet and all! Went swimmin' on Monday and Tuesday. had a BBQ on Tuesday too! Cooked stingray, pomfret, beefsteak, pork chops and so much more!

Swimmin' as fun, did a lot of nonsense in the water. Bein' in the room all alne with her was nice too. Alone time, nice time!

Went home today, Mandy came back with me too. I have to say, it's nice finally bein
able to relax. Today's shower was my favourite!

Had Yong tao foo for dinner! Ha Ha Ha Had McFlury for dessert.

This month's editions of Maxim and FHM are crap!

Goin' for my chalet now. See you guys in awhile!

I just realised I had so man comrades missin'. Oh well, added them ohredy. Added some cool shit to my blog too, now I got a clock and a weather girl. He He He

I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you
Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t chooseI swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feelYou trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...
Oh...Oh...Oh...Oh...
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new
Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
ConfessIs someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

I think I'm fallin' in love again. The girl from Wushu Warriors is so cute! Oh Pei Ling, you're the girl of my dreams!

Naa just jokin', Mandy will kill me if she sees this!

So fuckin' bored at home. Got my chalet tomorrow, but now Mandy says she may not be able to make it.

Had Twisties for lunch with some cheap-ass grape juice.

Ha Ha Mandy's stinky shirt still stinky! Ha Ha Ha Can't smell too much.

I'm quite sad. Mandy's playin' Mahjong with her folks. Don't wanna disturb her.

Had Yong Tau Foo for dinner, yeap. Again. Watched the last episode of Lilo&Stitch today.

Saw Melinda after like almost a year. Saw Peggler yesterday. I'm seein' old faces nowadays.

Saw this really chiou girl in the coffee shop but no mood to look at her.

Just feel like buildin' a sand castle and livin' in it from now on. I'll stand on top of it and throw sandballs at people shoutin', "I'm the king of the castle and you're the dirty rascal!".

I'm just sad. Goin' shoppin' by myself tomorrow. Boo Hoo Hoo

Will excitement just hit me smack in the face? Please?

Really nice show. One of the greatest this year.

Mandy's very mean to me, let's all not friend her okay? Naa just jokin'

Marie's gettin' me dad cable. You know what that means right? Yes! It's TNA Xplosion! Ha Ha Ha

Just had Yong Tau Foo. The last time I ate it was donkey donkey years ago. Damn it was good. Bought one nugget, two fishballs and three japanese chickens!

Ha Ha Ha I got two stinky shirts! You don't know what a stinky shirt is? Well, a stinky shirt is a T-shirt or a sweater that belongs to someone you love. So the person wears it like for awhile to get their "smell" on it. Once it's fragranced up? It's a stinky shirt. Stiny shirts some times help you miss the person less. 'Coz the smell is so close that you feel the person next to you.

Ha Ha Ha I got a stinky shirt! Ne Ne Ne

Oh and by the way, Stinkt shirt is a trademark phrase of mine. You guys can use it but remember it's origin! Ha Ha Ha

I watched Lords of Dogtown today. I'd say I enjoyed it very much! Today was a very nice day. Went out with Mandy today. I wanna get my skateboard soon.

Got Chalet next week but nobody's invited! Ha Ha Ha

It's gonna be me and my baby only. Bleh!

Happy 3 months anni baby!

Had food poisonin' last night. At 4 a.m. Lasted all the way till 6.

Mandy came over today! Had so much fun. Did all the stuff we used to do. Had so much fun. We were celebratin' for our bein' together for 3 months. It's supposed to be tomorrow but it's my dad's birthday so yeah.

Had Mac's for lunch, Crystal Jade for tea and Swensons for dinner! Yum Yum We couldn't finish the earthquake. Ordered too much food. I enjoyed myself after so long.

Mandy tole me something funny. See there's this guy called Norman how supposedly likes her. But she never liked him. Then he tried his luck when we broke up a few days ago. Then when he found out we were bacl together, he wasn't very happy. Ha Ha Ha

Now I got something to go to sleep with everynight that will remind me of you. I hope it helps me miss you less everyday.

It's been exactly a week since I've seen her. Kinda miss her a lot. Not much happened, didn't eat yesterday, no mood. Till Mandy made me promise I'll grab a bite before I went to bed. Sneakd out of the house to buy cup noodles.

Did some crappy stuff with her last night, it feels good to talk to her, but I just need to see her soon. A lot has happened since I last saw her. Been playin' Starcraft most of the time.

Been foolin' around with my lightsaber, I'm tryin' to get the blade of the Anakin hilt and placin it on the Qui Gonn hilt. Been tryin' like hell. Qui Gonn's hilt has been customised to my likin', added some intricate "Sith" tattooin' to it. Added a few screws to make it look less Qui Gonn, if you know what I mean.

I'm shit out of ideas. I'm bored. Someone help!

Yeah! Mandy's comin' over tomorrow!

Ha Ha Ha Ha

My Father's mum is comin' down to Singapore after like a 30 year absence from his life. I don't know why she even bothered to come back afer all this while. Come back only give so much trouble. All my cousins are so excited to meet her. I can't be bothered.

If I was forced to meet her, the only things I'll ask is why she even bothered to come back. What I don't understand is that since she's back, why didn't she make any effort to visit her children? Why come back and act like some celebrity that we have to go visit her and call askin' 'bout her. As far as I'm concerned, she's not my grandmother.

My eyes are soar. My nose is blocked. This is what happens when you cry all night. Fuck, I'm turnin' into a panzy!

Mandy came back to me yesterday. I called her at night but she did't pick up. I think I called her like a hundred times. From 8 all the way to like 10, she never picked up.

Finally when she picked up, we just talked. I said sorry for all the things I said that I didn't mean. We cried like shit last night.

What made me burst out even more was when she said yes when I asked if she still loved me. I was shocked? If she loved me, why did she leave me?

I was the one talkin' sense most of the time, she was just spillin' bullshit all the time. Crazy girl.

Then she asked me to take her back, I did. I can't live without her. I admit, I'm the world's biggest ass.

She told me her day wasn't good at all. Her mom brought her to Funan, then she remembered that we went to Funan, then she felt sad. Then they went to eat Pastamania at TP. We did that too, so she felt even worse. Then they walked around TP central, we used to do that, so she felt even shitty. Then they were playin' this Ronan Keating in central, it was a love song, and yes she felt even worse. Then her mom said something to her and she said, "Yeah right!". Then she said a voice in her head said, "No left!". See, I always said that whenever she said, "Yeah right!". Ha Ha Ha Ha even the enivronment was on my side, her ubconscious also on my side. Then she went home to read all the Lovey Dovey SMSes I sent her and she cried even more.

Crazy girl! I mean I love her, I don't know why but no matter how many times she hurt me I'll still love her. The best part, was when I told her I loved her and she called me and idiot before burstin' into tears. I was laughin' and tearin' on the other end of the phone.

I loe you dear, and yes you can be my Lilo again. Muacks!

I thought I wouldn't be able to survive last night but hell! It was great! I didn't sleep this well in months!

I called Fatin to say I was sorry. I wanted to say sorry 'coz I chose someone over my best friend. She's been with me through it all. She was there longer than Mandy was. I feel so bad fot lettin' my heart take over my head. I'm glad Fatin still wants me back. We talked for awhile before I went to bed.

Funny thing, there was a thunderstorm right after I broke up with Mandy. I don't understand why she had to lie to me and keep it for so long. I asked her to promise me to tell me when she stopped lovin' me. I think she replied something like this, "I won't stop lovin' you.". I thought I had someone I could trust. You know what was her reason for not tellin' me earlier? She was a crybaby, yeap that was her excuse. She said she didn't want to make me sadder than I already was. Seriously? I couldn't have been sadder yesterday. She goes out with a guy for like 4 hours then I call her and she breaks up with me. Hmm.. and she says there's no one involved. Call me crazy, but I'm not stupid.

What I love best is that she convieniently broke up with me AFTER she spent all my cash. Isn't she adorable? Aww! It's wierd, I'm not angry or sad. I'm just bored. I just miss havin' a friend. I find it really funny, 'coz I thought I would be cryin' my eyes out.

I asked her so many questions last night. 1) Do you still love me? She didn't answer me at all. She just said, "I don't know." after 20 seconds. 2) Do you still want me? She said, "I don't know." after 25 seconds. 3) Is there someone else? Poom! Answer "No!" in 0.5 seconds. Then I had to beat around the bush before I got somemore answers.

Her points on why she doesn't love me anymore are: 1) We are of different religions (What the fuck?) 2) She's not the one for me ( I never had anyone better than her) 3) I'm not what she wants in a guy (Oh I'm sorry I don't look like George Clooney!) 4) I'm not the one for her

I felt this was the fuckin' biggest pile of shit I ever had delivered to me on the phone. Then I asked her one last time, "Do you want me anymore?". Wow she replied a "No!" so loud that I think people in Africa could hear her. That was when I had it.

You think you heard it all? Wait wait wait, here's when she dropped the biggest bomb of shit on me. Guess what she said? "I still want you as a good friend."

Nasty noodles from outer space! Gee! I'd be honoured to be your good friend after you just ripped my heart out! Do you seriously think I can look at the girl that I love so fuckin' much and just see a friend? The girl that I would die for, the girl whom I gave up my best friend for, the same girl who left me before the exams and fucked up my studies, this same girl, ripped my fucin' heart out after I gave her everythin', and what? She wants to be friends? NO no, good friends! I'm sorry but I cant do that right now yeah?

All those nights I stayed up wonderin' if you were okay. All those days I spent clueless 'bout you. All those days I spent lookin' the right thing to get you. All those days I starved so I could save up to get you what you wanted. All those days, I Fuckin' wasted! I never meant shit to you. If I did, would we be apart? Can you look me in the eye and tell me that for one second you were in love with me?

What I don't get is, why take me away from my best friend? Why fight for me? Just so that you could toy with me without anyone interferrin'? Are you that sick? Why lie and break my heart like it was nothing and cry? Were you cryin' because I didn't let you win in the end? I didn't play along with your sick game to ruin me?

I sarificed everything for you, and you left me. Left me when I needed you so much. When I called you last night, I thought you'd soothe my fears and reassure me. You did the direct opposite and just ripped my heart out.

I hope every night before you sleep, you think 'bout what you did and it haunts you like nothing. The last girl that did this to me is in a world of shit. The guy she left me for left her, her parents thinsk she's a failure and her friends abandoned her. God is on my side. He punishes those who hurt me so deeply. Like I said last night. I hope you fall in love with someone and he breaks your heart, a thousand times more than what you did to me.

I love you.

I can't be bothered with the dates anymore. Why did I ever get myself into such a mess?

Yes, she just left me, a few hours ago. Today is the last day we are together. She lied to me and broke my heart. She hurt me more than anyone could.

I've cried enough and I've hurt more than I should.

Lies Lies Lies. I knew I was gonna get hurt in the end but hell! I still went for it.

I don't regret meetin' her, I don't regret spendin' time with her. I definetly don't regret lovin ' her.

I regret ever trustin' her. I regret ever thinkin' she loved me.

Don't get me wrong, I still love her. With all I have left, I still love her.

War Journal Day- 15

They meet up at Toa Payoh like how I used to fetch her. They go to the Esplanade. They play pool. The sun goes down. They're eatin' at Pastamania at Cine. They're doin' it in the toilet. He buys for her flowers. They watch a movie and fool around at the back. He holds her hand. She kisses him. Benji sees them at Taka and calls me. Someone pulls me to the toilet to listen to the people inside. I see them from afar but can't catch up. She meets him in class. She has dinner with an old friend. They walk on the beach. She smiles at me before walkin' off with him. She jumps on him in the staircase. She gets pregnant. She cries to me. I walk into class and catch them together. I see them in the canteen doin' stuff we used to do. They go on a long walk along Orchard road.

Now isn't that a blur of thoughts? That's what's racin' through my mind right now. I haven't eaten the whole day and I haven't got out of bed for more than 5 mins at ends.

Why does it hurt every time? Why must I always be the one with the heartbreak? Why must it be me who sheds tears? Why is is always me? Why do I suffer? Have I done something so wrong that I deserve my worst fears to come alive? Have I wronged someone so badly that I must suffer this over and over and over?

This time it hurts really really bad. I though bloggin' might help, but hell! It's gettin' worse. It seems that the more I type, the more real it sounds, the more likely it's takin' place.

There is no word for the way I feel right now. Sad? I'm sad when they cancel my favourite cartoon. Angry? Angry's when I can't get Stats. in my head. Disturbed? Disturb's when I cant sleep at night. Agony? Agony can't be compared to what I feel.

I so wanna sleep and not wake up, to get away from it all. But the more I sleep, the more the thoughts come to haunt me. Take me away from all this pain and sorrow. Take me away to some place where memories and thoughts and feelings don't exist.

Take me away, please.

My Clone Trooper

War Journal Day- 14

TO: Fer’Bona IncomCEO, Lightsabers ‘R’ Us Incorporated

FROM:D. MaulCoruscant General Hospital

Dear Sir:
Thanks muchly for allowing me to try out the prototype for your new DuelBlade 2000™ doublebladed lightsaber. While the advanced technology you provide is certainly exciting, the design flaws involved cost me and my Master our revenge against the long-hated Jedi and I myself am writing this from inside two separate Bacta tanks.

This DuelBlade™ is completely unusable and hazardous to the owner’s health for the following reasons:
THE RADIATION SHIELDING IS INADEQUATE. I am aware that your physicians have run repeated tests that show that the DuelBlade’s™ shielding is up to UL standards, but I find it extremely suspicious that shortly after I began using it my eyes turned yellow. And then my teeth started to fall out. My doctor says this isn’t normal, and also states that your assertion that the hooded robes I wear "frequently cause scalp irritations that sometimes develop into little yellow horns" is not a statement that would stand up in court.

THE BLADE DESIGN IS ONLY CONDUCIVE TO FIGHTING JEDI KNIGHTS. While the DuelBlade’s™ patent-pending doubleblade configuration is definitely unique, only Jedi seem dumb enough to swing at the saber blades out on the end. Everyone else I fought with just aimed at the handle, which is three feet wide, located smack in the center of my body, and has my hands on it — at one training stage I was going through three or four artificial hands a week. (And three or four training partners — we Sith have to keep that veil of secrecy, y’know.) I’m not quite sure why only Jedi are inclined to actually go for the blades, but then again, these are the same Jedi I kicked in the face three or four times and they never seemed to catch on to STAY AWAY FROM THE FEET. They’re noble, but they’re not too bright.

THE ACTIVATION BUTTONS ARE POORLY PLACED AND THERE IS A HIGH LEARNING CURVE. When I finally graduate from my "Advanced Enemy Asphyxiation 101" Sith class next week, I’m going to strangle everyone in your R&D department for coming up with this one. Who the heck decided that having big off-and-on buttons on a handle you’re supposed to twirl around with both hands was a good idea? Every time I twirled, I hit a button by mistake and shut it off. Do you realize embarassing it is to pull off a really cool baton-style twist and end up with a deactivated saber? All of the other Sith were laughing at me. Well, the other Sith, anyway.
Don’t get me wrong...I appreciate that your design department put in special lock switches for me — but they didn’t hold that well. During my last fight, I had it locked down. I had this little dweeb of an apprentice with a really bad ponytail trapped down a well and sure enough, just like I thought, he used the Force to leap out of the pit and slice me in half — and when I went to swing, the on-switch lock failed and I was left standing there saberless! Do you realize how dangerous this is? I could have been killed!

As it was, he sliced me in two, but that leads me to the "high learning curve" aspect of this discussion — normally a bisectional cut through the abdomen would be fatal, but fortunately I’d accidentally sliced myself in half so often trying to use this thing that my lower intestine had been replaced with a rubber tube from a ’47 landspeeder and I just glued myself back together. I’m more machine than man, now. Darth Sidious has told me that as a result of my failure, he’s thinking about replacing me with some young kid — a kid who’ll be all human, not just a bunch of cybernetic parts.

Man, I hope I can make the grade.

Yours truly,
D. Maul
Sith Apprentice-In-Training

War Journal Day- 13

Why does it hurt so bad? Whenever you never know what's goin' on, it hurts even more than knowin'. I'm alway there but it never seems enough. The silence is killin' me. I don't know what's goin' on, I dont't know what's gonna happen.

please tell me, tell me please.

War Journal Day- 12

I spent today with Mandy, again. We planned to go for Subway but she wanted Yong Tao Fu, guess who won? Yes, she did. After Cine its off to Hereen. I got a new pair of earrings. Quite nice. I also got this replica of a Katana. Comes with a flag, sword stand, sheath and yes, the sword itself. Very nice, die cast metal and plastic. It's on a 1/6 scale, very detailed.

I exhausted all my cash resourses today. Looks my dreams will have ot be shelved.

Oh yeah, I'm lookin' for a particular t-shirt. It's white, but with black sleeves and it's black round neck, without any designs on the front. Seen it? Tag me yeah?

War Journal Day-11

Went to Cine with Mandy. Watched The Longest Yard. Fuckin' funny! Lots of stars man! Goldberg, Stone Cold Steve Austin, Diesel, Nelly, Billy Bob Thorton, Rob Schneider, the dude from White Chicks, another dude from The Green Mile, Adam Sandler and not forgettin' Chris Rock.

Bought a lot of stuff today! Especially for someone. Ahem! Ahem! 2 tickects for The Longest Yard, 1 plate of Hokkien mee, 1 Sprite Ice, 1 Ice Lemon Tea, 1 bouquet of flowers, 1 ring, 3 pairs of earrings, 1 pair of sunglasses, 1 Clone Trooper toy(finally!), 1 packet of pepper chickenand 1 bottle of Sugarcane juice.

Watched Speed just now, classic show. Keanu Reeves.

War Journal day-9

Went shoppin' just now. Bought an Xbox game, a cap, lighter fluid and cheese fries. I'm addicted to chesse fries! Refuelled my lighter, now it's glowin like it originally was. I breathed life back into it! I decided to get a cap, 'coz it was my birthday and 77th Street was offerin' me 20% off on stuff i bought today! Cool huh?

Gonna get my tattoo done soon!

Should I get this done? Maybe I can wirte something in that piece of paper, hmm....

How 'bout this one?

Or should I get this one but without the shadin'?

War Journal Day-8

Today was supposed to be a special day, guess how I spent it. Well, Mandy couldn't meet me for today, which meant my entire plans for today were cancelled. My mum kept chasin' me out of the house. My bro already had plans, and when I went down to buy my magazine which I thought could cheer me up, it wasn't there! I was hopin' somethin' would happen later on in the day, but nope, I had to be disappointed over and over again.

What a wonderful day huh? What a fucked up day.

War Journal Day- 8

Spent yesterday with Mandy. She took me out for lunch. Had Japanese. Then we caught, A Perfect Catch at Woodlands. Had 2 presents from her, House of the Dead and one more girl for my collection! Thanks Mandy!

Oh well, today isn't any different from any other, rottin' at home. Happy Birthday to myself!

The Rich&Wealthy present their long awaited album, Ultraman Melayu!

Enjoy!

War Journal Day- 6

Another bad dream, those horrifyin' words, "I've always wanted him anyway!". I can't take it anymore.

War Journal Day- 5

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

War Journal Day- 5

I suddenly feel so sad right now.

War Journal Day-4

Went Sentosa today! Had a lot of fun! Julia, Kayly, Abel, Ronald, Tat and my baby were there. I bumped into too many people today! Met Grace at the station, the it was Bull in Harbour Front shoppin' centre. Met Ema at Starbucks and Ralph back at the station. Met Aileen, Chang's friend at the Bus station. Met Kulaa too!

We did a lot of crap man! Burried Tat in sand, Kayaked, swam, talked. Volleyball was fun, beat the crap put of the girls, some mats came to play too. Later on we had ice cream at New Zealand. Really nice! Yum! Yum!

I bought some Chicken at a bar and it wasn't worth my $16 bucks at all! Fuckin' waste! Now I'm broke.

Mandy sent me home but she had a tummyache at Admiralty. I feel so bad draggin' her halfway around Singapore when she could have been at home. I'm sorry baby.

Watched Passenger 57 just now. Really shagged. Gonna sleep now.

War Journal Day-3

I'm sad, I just came back from the barber, or should I say the butcher. He slaughtered my hair. I feel so bad because I actually led my hair to it's death bed. Now it just lies on the floor motionless. All life drained from it. Like a paralyised leg which can't move. my hair was part of me and I fought to keep it. I kept it for 9 months. Now it's gone. Just like that, one sentence and it was gone. I know I sound wierd, making a big hoo haa 'bout my hair but I really loved it. I really miss it. Looks like I've made a lot of stupid decisions this week.

Goodbye my hair, you'll always have a place in my heart.
Goodbye

War Journal Day-3

" :) na na pork.i love you! you know you give me a lot of headache and heart pain.but the funny thing is that i realise each time that i love you more and more.and i dun ever wanna lose you.cause you mean so much to me..... muack! "

These comfortin' words made my day! I love you too!

Baby I love you and I'll never ever let you go!

War Journal Day- 2

We're goin' to Sentosa on Monday. Mandy, Julia, her guy, her friend, Ronald, Abel, Benji and I are goin'. Nurul's down with sore eyes so we'll see if she can heal by then. Tat hasn't gotten back to me. Zainal's workin'. Oh yeah, Kayly's comin' too.

I don't know how it'll turn out.

"And if that mockin' bird don't sing, momma's gonna buy you a diamond ring"

I'm in a dilemma. Should I or should I not? I really want to but I'm so afraid. I'm afraid it'll all go to waste. If I don't do it, I can do so many other things I've been dreamin' of doin'. I've put all of them on hold just so I can do this one thing. Why should I sacrfice all my efforts sufferings for you? Why? Why should I give it up so you can have a moment of happiness? Why should I give up my lifetime of fufilment for your one single moment of happiness?

I'll do it, because I love you. Even though I know............

War Journal Day-1

It's a new start for my blog, I'm using a new skin now. Changed a lot of stuff.
Guess who I saw just now at Scotts, Cheryl Fox! She was fuckin' gorgeous! I wanted to ask her to take a picture with me but I was scared she'd reject my request. One moment in life I'll always regret.

Went shoppin' with Mandy today. She bought a bag, a pair of slippers, a 2 piece bikini from Roxy and a red tube top. She's gettin' ready for the beach outing on Monday. Julia and Lorraine played her out today so I followed her instead.

We went to Bishan first then headed down town. We ended up in Plaza Singapura in the end.

I just got a lot on my mind right now. I'll blog again soon.

Clone Wars Day- 97

See, I don't, know why

You cryin like a bitch Talkin' shit like a snitch Why you, write a song bout me

If you really didn't care, you wouldn't wanna share Tellin' everybody just how you feel
Fuck, what I did, was your fault somehow Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out Fuck all the cryin', it didn't mean jack Well, guess what yo, fuck you right back
Fuck, what I did, was your fault somehow Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out Fuck all the cryin', it didn't mean jack Well, guess what yo, fuck you right back
You thought you could really make me moan I had better sex all alone (ha ha ha ha) I had to do your friend Now you want me to come back, you must be smokin' crack I'm goin else where and that's a fact
Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud Fuck it, I faked it, aren't you proudFuck all those nights you thought you broke my back Well, guess what yo, your sex was wack
Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud Fuck it, I faked it, I'll rent you out Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back Well guess what yo, your sex was wack
Whoa, whoa Uh uh yeah
Whoa, whoa Uh uh yea
Whoa, whoa Uh uh yea
Whoa, whoa Uh uh yea
You questioned, did I careMaybe I would howl if you wanna come to me Now it's over But I do, admit I'm glad I didn't catch your crabs I can't swear bad cause I got to go
Fuck, what I did, was your fault somehow Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out Fuck all the cryin', it didn't mean jack Well, guess what yo, fuck you right back

I found the other half of the Fuck It saga. The first one was done by Eamon. This other one was done by Frankee. It's really a stab back at the guy. I felt shocked at how she hit back. Damn she's tellin' it all!

Clone Wars Day- 97

I watched Valiant and Innocent Steps this past week. Not really nice shows. Valiant was realy short and I could predict what was happening next for Innocent Steps.

I found songs I was lookin' for too. Broken from The Punisher and What Can I Do by The Corrs. Watched The Punisher ohredy. Rented the DVD. Ha Ha Ha One more off my list! Mandy came over this week. Played Xbox. Taught her how to play Raw Deal. I went over the next day. Her mum wanted to see me, I stayed for dinner. Her dog's really cute, but sadly I'm allergic to fur! I'm suffering now, blowing my nose since last night. Coughin occasionally too.

Today wasn't a good day.