A day or two, what's the difference?

Veenotth keeps makin' fun of my big dick, I don't like it! David and Ice and Raman and Ricky! Fuck you guys and your small dicks! I can't help it if I have German blood!

Yesterday night was a mix of all emotions. Got some nice testimonials last night and I also got a smile from Madonna. Started talkin' on MSN and then I realised we were in the same class for quite some time! Ha Ha Ha Wanted to punk Eve but ended up talkin' crap and I'm supposedly gettin' married to her. Is it on Wednesday or Tuesday? I've no fuckin' idea.

I went for mass with Dinesh, sat for awhile then left. had dinner at Far East before headin' down to the Esplanade to get a glimpse of the master or guitars. The esplanade is not place to go when you wanna chill, no shops sell smokes!

Was talkin' to him last night and realised loads of shit. Both Dinesh and Madonna kinda helped but in a way also made things more complicated.

Caught Alpha Dog last night. Some show about these dudes kidnappin' the brother of a client that didn't pay up. They end up being good friends with the kid but also end up killin' him. Justin Timberlake is in and heavily tattooed. I'd say it is a real good show. Based on a true story though.

It's been mor than a day and still no word. it's either the ship sailed away or just decided to dock somewhere else. It hurts real bad knowin' how you could call one day and say you love me and yet lie to me on the very same day. It hurts goin' to sleep knowin' you're outside doin' things I shouldn't even talk about. Forgive me for sayin' it but doesn't all just seem so right? Although it's the last I'd ever think of, it just seems like the right thing to think of.

It hurts so fuckin' bad.
Not knowin' what's goin' on,
not knowin' why you won't call,
not knowin' what you did,
not knowin' who it was,
not knowin' why you did it.

I still don't fuckin' understand how you could call to say you loved me and yet do this?

After all this I still fuckin' wonder where you are? Lyin' at the bottom of some ditch, left to die? Safe at home? Or in the arms of some fucker you thought could give you some fun?

Fuck you! And I hope you die if you did anything wrong.

I hope you fuckin' die, if you did anything wrong.

I'm still very very very very confused and unsure.

I just got scoldin' from my mum about my phone bill. I also received a letter from the police force. My fuckin' heart just dropped, if I ever should go into N.S. I sure hope I get the army and not SDF or Police. Thank goodness it was just askin' me to consider the Police force.